It's been almost a YUR!

does anyone read this? just a test to see if i should actually keep up with this baby. I love the idea of it, but i keep forgetting i have a BLOG. therefore, my creative, late adolescent mind is wasting away minute by minute....................................

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i am writing this entry to avoid 2 massive papers that i've managed to escape from this past week.

BUT

i have no idea what to express through this electronic diary today. no. i.dea.

i guess my avoiding technique is falling through.

crap.

"Autumn is a second spring where every leaf is a flower." - Albert Camus

my dear friends,

i strongly encourage you to look up some autumn quotes. there are some jazz-tastic autumn quotes out there! but, you should take your computer outside and look them up. it just makes more sense.

bluestem BISTRA

i got a jorb at bluetstem and i learn how to make big people dranks today.

i'm excited.

i'm ready to go to maine.

even in the darkness, know your truth

there is SO much on my heart right now. SO much. but man oh man is God moving.

this verse inspirited me grandly this morning:

"I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death." philippians 3:10

this was what my heart was yearning to express and just couldn't. i want the real stuff, ya know? everything truly is loss compared to greatness of knowing him and i HAVE to live that way, which will only come about by being found in him more personally than i could eva imagine. this is my prayer.MOS DEF.

i could honestly go on and on right now, but i will spare you. also, i have a meeting soon. so, i'll leave ya'll with a zany picture... (see above, ok)

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man. what a weekend.

i can't even begin to describe how astonished i am at everything the Lord has blessed me with.

my sisters are incredible and so beautiful.

thank you Lord, for giving them to me.

you have surely made up for all of my lost time growing with them.

"God! Blow your Holy Horn!" -crasy jim

Being the obnoxious broad that I am, I asked Joe-seph at bluestem to grant me any drank order that they may jack up. AND...it happened this morning! It was such a jackpot, too (gambling is a sin ;) bc it was one of those incredible, yet incredibly expensive ICE STORM coffee blends. I'm relishing it...

Anyhoo, I had accountability at the butt crack-o-dawn with meg and emily this morning and it was invaluably encouraging. We prayed together this morning and the Jesus really showed up. Well, he was already there, but we chose to join him :)

words for the day:

"Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should." -ephesians 6:19-20

(em, this really reminds me of what you said this morning about being a slave to righteousness and not sin. yip)

i am so incredibly thankful that God even has the grace to grant me a desire like this. i want boldness and faith when it comes to living a truly spirit-led life. it IS attainable and God wants that for all of us. i want to care hard and GENUINELY care. only God can teach me to do that bc i am one selfish and broken gal. I'm praying that we can all achieve what we were meant to be in HIM!

also, i love it way too much when the stem plays irish tunage. i miss thee emerald isle so...

in closing,

"we were created to be God's crown of nature. Our joy comes from our willingness to serve others." -calvin miller (JOY)